I just saw myself on TV!!!! Yeah me, talking in the full view of SA and surrounding countries. My inner celebrity was might fulfilled. It was my 2 minutes of fame. A painting of one of my all time favourite dreams, coming alive.
I loved it even if it did add that 5kgs of TV all on my poor face, it was a great "pick me up". If you had thought or if I had made you believe that I'm just a girl purely focused on weight gain and loss issues, I hate to disappoint you because as you have noticed if you HAVE been reading that it's not all that I do. Yeah I'm multidimensional bitch!
I'm kind of redefining what I believe this attempt to loose weight should be for me. Not for anyone else. Writing on this blog is such an important part of that journey of discovery leading me to a point where I will know exactly where I went wrong and how to fix it but most importantly how to never ever go back to where I've been. This blog represents the many pieces of the puzzle I need to complete, it's like beautiful handcrafted art work that can never be duplicated. It gives me so much freedom, a space where I can say and think anything freely without being told to shut up or give space to someone else, because this is it, my space. It's a painting of my feelings, and it makes me so happy, we all have our own needs for what makes us happy and this is mine. This has allowed me the opportunity to call the shots and create new standards for what I expect from myself and my life at any given day. Of course my goals change from time to time, I could never be stagnant, I have too much nervous energy to ever be complacent. My point is writing is my dream fulfilled and it comes so easy and so naturally , but a dream should no longer be a dream if when you get up in the morning you can literally taste it in your mouth, if it's what you'd do if you were given a chance to make money and succeed from it, writing is something I'm feeling I should be following longer.
I guess the earth or universe or whatever you may call it does not show up like a thunder bolt or light bulb moment to give you directions of life but what it does give you, is the gift of sixth sense or intuition. Our inner thoughts and feelings "those we tend to keep shelved away in the dark in hopes that they will go away because they are scary and darn right silly" are actually the only things we really have that tell us which direction to take, our inner compass.
So if it tells you to go on a whirlwind journey, let's go! If we are so caught up in our daily lives to even follow that, then what's the point of it all, what's the point of living, who said a job has to be so unsatisfying before it can gain momentum of being a career. I refuse to believe that! My intuition tells me I'm multidimensional enough to paint my feelings in different ways by writing all day long, and without feeling like it's pressure. The payback if and when it comes through will only be a bonus!
Signing out
Mmabatho Brown
Author Extraordinaire
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