Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Taking time to reason

You might be wondering why I want to loose weight. I want to loose weight so that I can be healthier; I want to loose weight so that I can walk up a flight of stairs without feeling like I am having a heart attack; I want to run around our big yard with my children playing ball and riding bikes. I want to have more sex; I want my husband to be able to pick me up once in a while, I want to be able to lay around in his tshirts. I want to be able to go shopping without being told "Sorry mam we dont make it in that size", I want to not pay that extra R50 because its a size 42 as they make us do at Woolworths (it must be for the extra lenght of fabric it takes to make a shirt that will fit me).There is an entertainment tv channel that always focuses on why being skinny is better so this morning I looked up the definition of skinny "skin·ny .adj. skin·ni·er, skin·ni·est. Very thin. See Synonyms at lean" . I dont want skinny, skinny is having bones popping out from hunger (usually accompanied by bad mouth breath). Skinny is fashionable; skinny is sexy, I believe so many overweight women are already all those things and more whilst overweight. And just like being overweight skinny is easily accessible, it takes starving myself as hard as I was eating and having juice diets for weeks on end; its taking diet pills. But if you are really in a hurry for skinny - it costs a little over R80 000 at your nearest Netcare Clinic. I am looking for healthy weightloss, for the joy of seeing my legs get a little stronger by each week and my stomach feeling tighter than before, my arms shrinking and feeling muscles pop out where I never knew I had them. Dont get me wrong I am NOT against cosmetic surgery for weight loss for those whose health is overly compromised. I have also toyed with the idea of being an instant size 34 too many times( my best friend would tell you) after all it is affordable to me, but would it not be great to see how far my body can take me? I am looking for the challenge of doing it naturally as far as I possibly can before tucking and pulling the Dr 90210 way.

1 comment:

  1. How you had the courage to do this beats me. You really went out there and its just amazing that a person as confident as yourself has publicly exposed their vulnerability in this way. You know that Im going through the same thing and I have been reading your blog since you started it. You have not only changed your life but you have inspired me to change mine as well. Im not rushing at the result as I need to do this for me and make it a change in lifestyle. It can be done Mmabatho and I wish you all the best. I hope you really reach your goal and Im hoping I also have the strenght to reach mine. You trully have inspired a lot of women who are going through the same thing. God bless you

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