What I now know for sure

I have recently lost 15 kgs! I am sure by now you are well versed about my constant ups and downs of weight loss, 3 years; 5 diets; 2 xtreme weight loss pills and 5 scales later I was still not happy with what was going on with my body. Many caring people advised me to loose the weight including my GP but I WAS NOT loosing it because it was more aimed at making them happy, not me and partly because my hubby was happy whichever way I was.

It was only when the need to please subsided that I could magically transform my body and shifting the scale to a weight loss that I could never imagine within a short space of time. Now I no longer need to purchase a new dress every month in order to feel good. Everyday I tap for motivation within myself; into my closet as I try on more old dresses for inspiration and magically I fit! I am loosing weight without trying so hard.

I previously searched for influence from wrong sources including the rave reviews of this blog :-). I was also influenced by fear of failure, influenced by remarks of shock from old school mates who almost could not recognise the hefty side of me, I was influenced by celebrity quick weight loss regimes which failed to assist me and which I practically could not implement in my own life.

In the end, when all is said and done, what I know for sure is that you can only be influenced by that inner voice inside of you, when you are truly ready to live the life you feel you deserve. In the end its all about me. I am now 90 kgs, at my own pace, going no where slowly and thats alright!