Yes it's me, I am back. I have taken long break from blogging and have had to take stock of a few things. This blog suddenly overwhelmed me, the comments put up on the blog not only reaffirmed what I'd always known- that I can write but also the general pressure to upkeep the weight loss which you know is NOT that easy. To be honest I did not know that so many people had the same problem as me and some of your emails poured in I became a Sis Dolly; motivational speaker slash psychologist which I can assure you I am least qualified to do, heck I even got to be interviewed by a magazine, just to name but a few fabulous things that started happening. The last time I blogged was the day I found out I was pregnant, and in case you are not aware there is nothing more sexual AND fertile than a woman who is loosing weight. I then became depressed I mean the greatest depression, all that work for this!!!! If you start loosing sight of what is important in life just to prove you can achieve something, you have a problem and I HAD one. Soon after I lost the baby through ectopic ( don't feel sorry for me) I lost something that God gave then was taken away because I did not appreciate it. One thing I learnt in the past year is how to not live life according to other people, but I did just that, preferring weight loss over my baby, so once I took full account of what was happening, what had happened I had to sit back and take stock of my life, what I really want out of it then it hit me... I need to pause and so I did. Now I am back, with a healthier frame of mind and with the assurance that with God everything happens for a reason. I don't know if I can do this but I am going to give it another try. I write on this blog as honestly as I can, my heart on my sleeve so as to heal, so as to help others heal so take it how you like, this is my life... I hope you can relate.
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