I think I am fooling myself, the mirror tells me I am still a huge woman. I must be on a loosing streak... you know how you press on and on work harder each day sweat as hell and still no progress. I have not gone past that 99.6 mark, well I have not weighed myself I can just tell there there is no progress_ZERO _ Nadda! I thought by now I would be wearing a size 40 only but I still occasionally have to wear a 42, thought by now I would at least be heading to a 38:-(. I cannot feel so much pain for nothing, it seems easier to live the way I was if working so hard still retains my dress size - what is the damn point? There seems to be more lows than highs to this whole thing, why the hell should I bother myself. Even coworkers have not commented about the my weight, must be because there is nothing to comment about, no visible significant difference. The only time I get to hear anything is my husband sometimes squezes my bums and comments on how he cant grab it like he used to - still the acuracy of his statements is questionable and certainly unreliable because I know he loves me regardless. So for the most part here I am feeling like giving up again. I cant take the stress of waiting for change. I am running impatient of running on empty.
I feel that you are being very hard on yourself, just a few interesting facts; You have not weighed in for the past 3 weeks, Secondly, you just told me that you are givng away your black trendy boots because they are loose around your legs (I wonder why that is, Oops could it be the work outs ? I wonder). Did you not tell me on Saturday (24/10/2009) that your BFF exclaimed on how toned down you are. Lastly, on Monday you did your 7km under 1h30, which used to be a 2hr walk.
ReplyDeleteSo that being said, you are well on your way to achieving your goal. I see a drastic improvement on your fitness levels, KEEP IT UP !.
Have a good Day Buhlebezwe.